by uebermann » Thu Oct 13, 2016 8:43 am
had a dream last night where I was a chaperone at my niece's elementary school for a field trip and there was a group set up taking kids out on a large sled pulled by snowmobile out over a frozen lake. I was up above the lake area, keeping the kids in the line, when I heard a scream and the ice over the lake had broken and the 10 or so kids that were on the sled had all fallen into the frozen lake. they were all in kindergarten. heads started going under the water.
I took off and dove in to try and save as many as I could. Another adult was there on stable ice and I was lifting kids up out of the water and handing them to her. A few kids had gone under and were still struggling and I was lifting them up as fast as I could but before long I couldn't see any more of them and I was barely able to stay afloat myself due to the cold. I had passed out while lying on the ice on top of the lake, due to hypothermia I guess. I woke in a hospital and they told me that I had saved all the kids, but I remembered seeing three kids below me that I couldn't get to sinking to the bottom and I knew I was out of the water so how could I have saved them all?
But all 10 kids had come into the hospital to see me so they all had to be alive. The parents thanked me, the teachers thanked me. I was going through some kind of rehab at the hospital but it didn't make any sense because I didn't have any surgery. The doctors and nurses wouldn't let me leave. They ended up restraining me to the hospital bed. There was a lot of confusion and time gaps that I didn't understand. Events seemed to be happening out of order - I was ready to leave the hospital but then the next moment I'd be strapped to the hospital bed. Or I'd be going through rehab on a machine and then waking up on the floor of my hospital room.
Three of the children I saved kept coming back to see me, usually without any adults and suddenly I realized that they hadn't lived - these were the children I saw sinking in the lake the last time I went down before coming out. I was actually in a mental hospital and they were there to try and save me from myself, to help me live with the guilt of not being able to save them.
Then the cat stepped on my face and I woke up.